Updated: Mar 10

From the time we were little, we all set our sights on incredible dreams and aspirations. We planned to change the world and we had so much ambition and positivity to do just that. Naturally, when we get older it seems that most people’s dreams become “out of reach,” or “too crazy to even pursue.” Life gets in the way. But really, isn’t that the point of life? To strive to reach our dreams? I think from the time we were children, God placed a special desire in our heart because that is what He intended for our lives. As we get older, we will undoubtedly face obstacles on the journey to our goals, which often makes us question everything. But what if we fearlessly chased our dreams without hesitation?

Each individual will face challenges in their lifetime. They won’t always look the same person to person, but we can all relate to the struggle. I always knew I wanted to be a college basketball player. I worked my whole life to get to that point. I had several D1 offers and planned to continue playing the game at the next level, but never committed to any of those schools. My senior year of high school, I got recruited to run collegiate track after winning state in the 400 meter dash. I committed to Western Kentucky University and immediately began thinking of all the exciting things that were going to come within the next year: the benefits of being a college athlete, fun road trips with my new team, the freedom of college, and training to compete at the D1 level. What I didn’t anticipate, however, was the suffering my body was about to endure. Adapting to the training at the college level was one thing, but I suffered from a broken foot, was being told to lose weight constantly, was under a strict diet, and was also dealing with a hormone imbalance all as a freshman in college. I felt lost and confused, did I make the wrong choice?

I kept pushing to be the best athlete I could be. Although I was struggling through a lot, I was a competitor and I wasn’t going to quit. I continued to push my body, which later led to another broken bone in my foot and then eventually PCOS, or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, which was connected to my hormone imbalance. These injuries were not easy, but I learned a lot about my body throughout this time period.

Ultimately, I stopped running track because I felt that God had put it on my heart to pursue other things and give my body a chance to rest. Little did I know what He had planned for my future. Fast forward a year after quitting track and God placed me at Southeastern University on the women’s basketball team. Crazy things happen when we let go and just let God take control. His plans for us are so much bigger than our own and I am so thankful for what He has done in my life.

With that being said, I would be lying if I said everything was perfect now that I am fulfilling my original dream of playing college basketball. Of course, I love what I do, but it isn’t always easy. I am dealing with a chronic knee injury that leaves me struggling a lot at practices and games. I have learned ways to manage the pain but I have realized that it may never feel normal again during my time as an athlete, and I am okay with that. Some days are going to be harder than others and that is normal.

Obstacles will always be in the way. They will always creep into our lives and make us feel like we aren’t good enough. It is so important that we remember why we started and what our ultimate goals are. For me, I didn’t think I would ever have the opportunity to play basketball again, but God used track to strengthen me into a stronger version of myself before placing me in my next chapter. Never give up on your dream because you never know how God is planning to work them out.

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College baseball has been the ultimate test of my character and beliefs over the past 5 years. It broke me down to the lowest point in my life and forced me to deal with the internal voices that were telling me that I wasn't good enough to be where I was, that I was a fraud who only acted like he believed in himself, and thousands of other thoughts that I let consume me for a long time. It was a rough ride for a few years, and it made me question everything that I thought I stood for. I let it completely break me down, and I thought that there was no way out.

I was a prisoner in my own mind.

I'm not gonna lie, it sucked. I grew up with parents that gave me every opportunity to succeed in both baseball and life, and gave me every resource to control the voices that can cripple a person's beliefs. But I let those voices consume me anyway. And I hated myself for it. I thought to myself, "You have to be the weakest dude alive if you are going to let doubts creep in after everything that your parents taught you."

Then one day, everything changed. I was no longer a slave in my own mind, believing external or internal voices that were trying to tell me who I was. I was able to use the tools that my dad gave me from an early age to control my thoughts, and ultimately, figure out who I was. It made me into the person and baseball player that I am today. You want to know what it was that got me to that point?

An unwavering, irreversible Faith in Jesus.

It took me getting to that point to understand that I couldn't do it on my own. I realized that no amount of motivational videos that I watched or old video's of past at-bats were going to fix what was going on in my head.

Basically, I let God in.

If you are a Freshman struggling to control your thoughts/emotions on the field, or you're questioning whether or not you made a mistake picking the school that you're at, find comfort in knowing that God put you there for a reason. You are exactly where you are supposed to be at that time. God teaches us valuable lessons in every bout of adversity, trust me. You might figure out who you are and decide that this school isn't the right fit for you. Or you might overcome those lingering thoughts of doubt, resulting in you making an impact in that program for the next 4 years. Either way, trust that God is going to get you through it.

Some of you are probably going to read this and blow it off, which I get. We are all on our own journeys, and will come to terms with our faith at different times. I understand that. All I'm saying is that opening myself up to the idea of God being in complete control is what brought me back. It was the key to unlocking the jail cell that I was in mentally for years. And if you're finding yourself in that place, I pray that it brings you back too.

I mentioned earlier that my parents had given me all the resources and guidance that I needed to control my thoughts and keep the voices away. It took me 3 years of college baseball to finally apply it to my own game, but as I said, we go through every battle for a reason.

I'm going to list a few of the resources that helped change my outlook on the game of baseball and life down below. I hope that these help with whatever is holding you back. If you want any more information, please reach out. Even if I am able to help only 1 guy going through what I went through, or help stop it from happening, all of this was worth it.

Tools to take back your mind:

Tony Robbins

1. Learn how to control your thoughts


2. How To Master Your Emotions


3. Why We Do What We Do


4. Awaken The Giant Within (Audible)

5. Netflix: I Am Not Your Guru (Movie)

Craig Groeschel - Winning The War In Your Mind: Change Your Thinking, Change Your Life (Audible)

Mark Manson - The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F*ck (Audible)

Paulo Coehlo - The Alchemist (Audible)

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There is nothing more exciting than heading into your first year of college baseball. It will be unlike anything that you've ever experienced, and it's an absolute blast. The anticipation builds and builds that summer after you graduate high-school, and you start visualizing how you're going to mash against top arms on a Friday night.

Then you show up to campus, and you're surrounded by grown men with beards.

You're thrown into a crazy schedule of classes, morning lifts, team meetings, and long practices. It can be a lot to take in.

Freshman year can become overwhelming for a lot of guys, and I've had multiple teammates end their careers because they just couldn't handle it, and I've also seen guys get cut at the break because they just weren't performing at a high level. Especially now with the covid deal, rosters are absolutely swamped with old guys that should've graduated who are getting another shot, which makes it harder for freshman to get on the field. With all of that being said, here is what I would say to those young guys heading into campus:

If you want to stand out, you're gonna have to be bold.

You can't just hide in the back and go through the motions, especially when it comes to practice and morning weights. You're going to get called out, regardless of how well you do. You're a freshman. And in my experience, it wasn't because I wasn't performing well enough.

It was because they were seeing how I react to pressure.

99% of freshman stand in the back of the lines out of sight during team activities thinking things like:

"Oh well I'm just a freshman so I haven't earned the right to be up there."

"I don't want to make a mistake so I'm just going to stand back here and hope they don't look at me."

Doing all that is all well and good... if you want to be average.

If you're ok with being on chart duty on a Friday night vs. Texas Tech.

If you're ok with being a follower.

I am saying all of this because I've been there. I caved to that pressure when I first started by freshman year, and it wasn't a good feeling knowing that I could've been bold, and pushed the fear of failure aside during things as small as leading stretches and taking the first rep of live defense.

Trust me, you don't want that feeling. It absolutely blows.

So when you step on campus, take the first week or so to truly study how stretches are run, and go up there and lead it. Figure out how every drill is operated, then throw yourself in there for that first rep. Take the risks, even if that means that you might fail.

Coaches and players have a lot more respect for the freshman that fail when being bold than for the guys who stand in the back in hopes of just getting by.

If you want your shot in the spring of your freshman year, regardless of what level program, be bold from the start. Take the safety off and throw yourself into situations that make you uncomfortable. Trust me when I say it will pay off in the long run.

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